UPDATE ON MY BOOKS:

Okay, so my book of poems may or may not be done by next month... I was just looking through some of the pieces I was going to use and they need revisions. As for my fictional book... I am thinking that will be about a year away... But, I will keep everyone posted! :))))))))) 

<3 SNM

You Were(n’t)

You Weren’t



You were my favorite poem

I would read you all the time

Every day and every night

Weeding out the hurt

Opening my heart

Knowing I might not ever understand all the words

But, that was okay, because the lines of you were the most beautiful I have ever heard

I never wanted more than to put you first

And, as long as you loved me, I knew things would work

Love like unconditional

Conquering and undismissible

Unkillable, unstoppable

The kind that needs no rest

Love more permanent than death

I knew you could love me like this

It was the kind of person you were

But things got bad, and then they got worse

Despite your shortcomings, I still love you for everything… you weren’t

Falling

Falling




Today, I was staring out my window

The rain was falling down



As the raindrops hit the ground

There was something I figured out



Raindrops have no choice at all

They have no choice but to fall



People are a lot like raindrops

Made not to last for very long



Everything inevitably must have an end

There is no way to escape what’s destined



But, unlike the rain, we have choices to make

We have lives to live, and opportunities to take



We can live our lives a million different ways

It’s never too late for a person to change



So, I’m starting over; I’m starting new

And, I hope you’re fine—me without you



I have always known I wanted more

Now, I am finally going to live a life worth falling for

You Had Me

You had me



And I was kind of hoping that I could be all you would need


But, people as empty as you will always be looking


Hoping for someone else to fulfill their dreams






I was merely a commodity


Nothing more than something you just thought you could keep


You lied and made me believe


Making me think I meant something






The truth is that you are not capable of a real relationship


You have too much self-interest


You prefer to be shallow instead


Superficial doesn’t require one to be selfless






I had something you wanted


That’s why you wanted me


And, I had something you needed


That’s why you needed me






I was nothing more than a structure that encompassed a bucket of dreams


Things you wished for yourself


Things you wished for to be real


Things you wished you could feel






You tore me down with your faked feelings


You spilled my bucket of all my dreams


You hurt my heart, and made me bleed


You showed me that nothing in this world is what it seems






I was merely a commodity


Nothing more than something you just thought you could keep


You lied and made me believe


Making me think I meant something






But, now I realize that people as selfish as you can never be happy


Always hoping


Always searching


You’ll never be free






For a while I thought I could be all that you would ever need


I was foolish to think such a thing


It’s kind of funny, but


You had me

Destroy Me

Sometimes I wish I could just be naïve



Only knowing the sum of all the parts that make me, me


And never knowing all of the parts of my summation


Maybe then I could let go of my outlandish ideations






I wish I could kill the parts of me that think individually


I wish I could consolidate all that I am indefinitely


I wish I could trap myself so that I could be free






I consist of the fullest empty you will ever see


Drink me


Each drop will taste different from those of the past


Go ahead, fill up your glass


Use me, I am made to last


Treat me bad; give me a part of your half






Abuse me; act like you love me


Teach me about lies; teach me about deceit


Show me all of the things I never wanted to see


Break me down; make me weak


Convince me; make me believe


Tell me things, so that I’ll never leave






Then when you are done, destroy me again


Break my heart, you know I can mend


I am used to picking up the pieces of all my parts by now


I have you to thank for showing me how

Sleeping

Sleeping
There
For her
One more hour
He dreams big dreams
She wanted him to